06.22.07
Posted in Womanhood at 6:52 am by erald17
Another day to be remembered. Another life lesson to be taken note of.
Today I feel so blessed for having realized that I have read and heard countless beautiful stories about life. I concede what Ms. Kris Aquino once said during the TV program, Game KNB?, "it pays to read." Apart from that, one can also gain knowledge with less effort. In my statement, it is, "it pays to listen."
All at the same time I feel so blessed for having found someone who is too good to be true. A leakage from my private prayer, "God, You know what I want, You know my intent, You know everything. St. Joseph, lead him to my way, may I not miss him."
Back when I was younger ever, I have "heard" many people say, "you are yet too young. There are still a lot of people that you will be meeting when you go to college, to work, etc." However, later on I realized that no one can ever define or describe how life would go on for any one. I am 18 years old right now, but that figure is but a matter of years. And age cannot be best defined by the number of years one has been existing. Age can be better reflected by how we answer the questions: 1) "What life have I made for the last _ years?" 2) "What person have I become for the last _ years?" 3) "What meaning regarding life and myself have I discovered during the past _ years?" 4) After _ years, is it already clear to me what I want to become or happen out of this temporary life?" 5) [yours to make] 6) -do- 7) -do- 8…10…15…
Like my writing style, the life that I have had for the last 18 years has been very disorganized. This is not an excuse of a poor writer rather a defense of someone who considers writing as self-expression. But out of these 18 years of disorganized, chaotic and savage life, I have learned a few things. Simply stated, "be thankful," and "enjoy life."
There are countless beautiful and wonderful things that I have right now. Countless they are so I would just list the first three: my man, strength of character and my precious gem. Including the blessings not listed, all of them are subject to loss. Whether I would like it or not, whether I could stand it or not. And it is but natural to have the fear of losing any of them. We know not what the future holds, that is why we fear it. But we know who holds the future.
This is not a guarantee, but who knows it might work well. "Learn to thank God. This is a simple act yet it means so much."
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06.17.07
Posted in Songs at 6:40 am by erald17
What if I took my time to love you?
What if I put no one above you?
What if I did the things that really mattered?
What if I ran through the hoops of disaster?
No one would care if we never made it
We’re in this alone so why don’t we face it?
There is no room to blame one another
We just need time to forgive each other
What about love?
What about feeling?
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith?
What about trust?
And tell me baby… what about us?
How can I give this love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain? It’s never-ending
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we should be keep calling
I’ll take the rivers rise
I’ll take the happy times
I’ll take the moments of disaster
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06.12.07
Posted in Womanhood at 12:54 am by erald17
In your life, you will take note of a lot of people.
Ones with whom you shared something special,
One who will always mean something.
There’s the one that you first kissed,
you first loved, you lost your virginity to,
you put on a pedestal, the one that you are with,
and the one that got away!
Who is the one that got away?
I guess it’s the person with whom everything
was great,
was perfect,
but the timing was just wrong.
There was no fault in the person,
there was no flaw of chemistry,
but the cards just didn’t fall
the right way, I supposed.
I believe in the fact that ending with someone,
finding a long time partner that is,
doesn’t lie merely in the other person.
I can actually argue that an equal part or
maybe even the greater part,
has to do with the matter of timing.
It has to do with you being ready to settle down
and commit to someone in a way that goes
beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.
How often have you gone through it without even realizing it?
When you’re not ready to commit in the mature manner,
it doesn’t matter whom you’re with,
it just doesn’t work.
It’s not that you and the person you are with are no good.
It’s just that it’s not yet right and little things become
the flash point of that fact.
Then one day you’re ready.
You really are.
And when this happens,
You’ll be ready to settle down with someone.
She or he may not be the most perfect.
She or he may not be the brightest star of
romance to ever burned your life
But it will work because you’re ready,
because it’s the right time &
you will make it work.
And it makes sense, it really will.
So the day comes when you’re finally making sense of things,
and you find yourself to be a different person.
Things and your approach are different.
You finally understand who you are
and what you want
and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived.
And mind you there’s no telling when this day will come.
Hopefully you’re single,
but you could be in a long term relationship,
you could be married with three kids.
It doesn’t matter.
All you know is that you’ve changed,
and for some reason,
the one that got away is the person you think about.
You’ll think about the person because you’ll wonder,
"What if he/she was here today?"
You’ll wonder, "What if we were together now,
with me as I am and not as I was?"
That’s the one that got away is.
The biggest "what if" you’ll have in your life.
Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married
in which case it’s the same thing.
You just have to accept and know that
your memories of that person will probably bring
a nice smile to your lips in the future
when you’re old, gray and reminiscing.
But if neither of that is the case then it’s different.
What do you do if it’s not yet too late?
Simple…!
Find him or her…
Because the very existence of a
"ONE THAT GOT AWAY"
means that you’ll always wonder what if you got that one.
You might drop in from out of nowhere
and it won’t make a difference.
If the timing is finally right,
it will all just fall into place somehow and you know,
I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling,
in the end to be able to say to someone,
"HEY YOU! YOU’RE THE ONE THAT ALMOST GOT AWAY!"
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06.08.07
Posted in Womanhood at 5:19 am by erald17
Love is seeing what your lover really looks like for the first time.
It’s truth.
Love is knowing what time it is and not caring.
It’s joy.
Love is the arms around you tightening their embrace.
It’s ecstasy.
Love is seeing the new side of a person you thought you knew.
It’s renewal.
Love is telling a person if you have to leave, you will let him or her sleep, and being told that he or she would rather be woken.
It’s tenderness.
Love is waking up to find the subject of your dream you were having asleep on your shoulder.
It’s where fantasy meets reality.
Love is being there to wake your lover. Slowly.
It’s sensuousness.
Love is belatedly knowing why you bothered to buy a queen-sized bed three years ago.
It’s practicality.
Love is two people only taking up a third of a queen-sized bed.
It’s closeness.
Love is knowing you gave the extra set of keys to your apartment to the right person.
It’s trust.
Love is saying goodbye and knowing you will be back by mutual consent.
It’s faith.
Love is stretching your arms and discovering the real meaning of the word "sore".
It’s a lesson in human frailty.
Love is opening your medicine cabinet and finding your tube of toothpaste turned into a pretzel.
It’s adaptation.
Love is sitting at the window, looking out and remembering whom you were with the night before.
It’s reflection.
Love is hearing the weather forecast for a winter storm and wishing you could spend it in bed with your lover.
It’s loneliness.
Love - stories that will never be told.
It’s personal.
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06.05.07
Posted in Womanhood at 1:26 am by erald17
"Napakamapaglaro nga naman ng pagkakataon." Yan ay isa sa mga sinabi nina Ate Jen at Sir Mike.
Akalain nyo nga namang naging counseling office ang SAO at DO. Well that’s just a proof na meron ka palang matatakbuhan na mga tao na akala mo ay kapag usapang school activities mo lang makakausap.
JUNE 4, 2007 - natuto din ako magtanda ng date. Di kasi ako talaga senti at tipong tatandaan bawat date ng memorable events.
Indeed it is one of the most memorable days of my life. Di ko nga inaasahan na mapapaiyak ako ng dalawang ‘to. If I am not mistaken, that was my first time to shed tears in school.
They didn’t know the whole story, yet they knew exactly where to strike. And I must admit, naliwanagan naman ako. Naliwanagan ako sa ginagawa kong pagbubulag-bulagan.
Ouch talaga. As in.
Hanggang ngayon nauulit ko yung statements, "Alam ko kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Alam ko kung sino ang taong lalapitan ko. Yun nga lang sa ngayon wala pa akong pagkuhanan ng lakas ng loob."
Bull’s eye!
At ang pamatay na banat ni Nice, "Wag mong piliting tumawa."
To Ate Jen, thanks talaga sa araw na yon. Mula pagkarating ko sa school hanggang sa pagkasakay ko pauwi. You know what you did? Nagawa mo i-share yung strength na meron ka. Oo nga ano, wala naman ibang magtutuloy ng laban, AKO lang. Wala naman nagsabi na madali. "Haaay…" Matututunan ko na rin mag monologue. That would be nice. 
Sir Mike, nasapol nyo yun ah. Yung Present vs. Future. At yung line na wala nang sabi sabi pa, "Mahal mo eh." Present lang yung hawak natin, yung meron tayo. Pano haharapin ang future kung hindi unahin harapin ang ngayon?
Ate Jen, naniniwala rin ako na may mga tao na sayo sana pero napapakawalan, may mga pagkakataon na dumadaan pero napapalampas. At kapag nangyari yun, wala ka magagawa kundi tanggapin na nakawala at nakalagpas sya. Sad di ba, pero you learn your lesson. Sad pa rin di ba kasi the lesson is learned at the end, kung kailan tapos na. Kaya hangga’t maaari talaga, decide in a manner that you won’t be regretting, at pahalagahan kung ano ang meron ka ngayon.
Isa pa, walang imposible kapag pareho kayong lumalaban at pareho ang ipinaglalaban nyo.
Maraming reasons para maging malungkot, pero marami din para maging masaya. One way to start is to change one’s mentality. Be positive. And one must remember na di sya nag-iisa. Maalin man pwede takbuhan at pagkunan ng lakas ang family, boyfriend/girlfriend or friends. Si God, automatic na yun, faith ang kailangan. Ang ganda sana kung okay lahat yung tatlo di ba? Pero bihira lang na okay yun lahat. At least meron ka malalapitan maalin sa tatlo. In my case, isa na lang yung kulang 
Presently, I am feeling hopeless pa dun sa isa, pero hoping against hope na nga, I am still hoping it will be fine soon. In God’s time. For the meantime, I know I have to smile at my life, be thankful for what I have and put my efforts to keep them in my grasp, and keep on moving on. Sir Mike, mahirap talaga kapag ginagawa nating complicated ang ating life. Asa atin naman kung papaano di ba…
_to all my friends, lots of thanks to each of you.
_to my prince, kaya natin ‘to
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