06.22.07
Virginity
Another day to be remembered. Another life lesson to be taken note of.
Today I feel so blessed for having realized that I have read and heard countless beautiful stories about life. I concede what Ms. Kris Aquino once said during the TV program, Game KNB?, "it pays to read." Apart from that, one can also gain knowledge with less effort. In my statement, it is, "it pays to listen."
All at the same time I feel so blessed for having found someone who is too good to be true. A leakage from my private prayer, "God, You know what I want, You know my intent, You know everything. St. Joseph, lead him to my way, may I not miss him."
Back when I was younger ever, I have "heard" many people say, "you are yet too young. There are still a lot of people that you will be meeting when you go to college, to work, etc." However, later on I realized that no one can ever define or describe how life would go on for any one. I am 18 years old right now, but that figure is but a matter of years. And age cannot be best defined by the number of years one has been existing. Age can be better reflected by how we answer the questions: 1) "What life have I made for the last _ years?" 2) "What person have I become for the last _ years?" 3) "What meaning regarding life and myself have I discovered during the past _ years?" 4) After _ years, is it already clear to me what I want to become or happen out of this temporary life?" 5) [yours to make] 6) -do- 7) -do- 8…10…15…
Like my writing style, the life that I have had for the last 18 years has been very disorganized. This is not an excuse of a poor writer rather a defense of someone who considers writing as self-expression. But out of these 18 years of disorganized, chaotic and savage life, I have learned a few things. Simply stated, "be thankful," and "enjoy life."
There are countless beautiful and wonderful things that I have right now. Countless they are so I would just list the first three: my man, strength of character and my precious gem. Including the blessings not listed, all of them are subject to loss. Whether I would like it or not, whether I could stand it or not. And it is but natural to have the fear of losing any of them. We know not what the future holds, that is why we fear it. But we know who holds the future.
This is not a guarantee, but who knows it might work well. "Learn to thank God. This is a simple act yet it means so much."
loren said,
July 5, 2007 at 12:42 am
eneng, such a good piece…keep it up…sana matupad mo lahat ang pangarap mo…and i hope you are happy..yun lang naman yun…continue to polish your craft..stay humble, loving, pretty and smart…love yah