09.18.07
tongue tied
"Guys gudpm, enjoy life ha.. too much of something is bad…"
Sometimes I really think that I’m such a stupid person. I utter so many things yet I know I am so innocent about life. When I try to reflect, I can assess that my life has gone from bad to worse.
At the moment I still do not know what is important to me, and what is pathetic is that why the hell am I trying so hard to know what it is or rather what "should" be important to me.
I do admit it is hard to pretend and to utter words that I cannot withstand. Carry on: words that have failed to push me forward. I know now, life is a complexity. And I do not know the right formula to live it well.
How much I would want to recollect but schedule does not permit me. If I could live life for the second time, I wish schedule would not exist. It kills the element of surprise. And spoils life’s thrills.
Powerless I am compared to life. At the moment, I am thinking that if I could create life itself, I would phase out a few things: competitions, schedules, minutes and formal schooling. These four things have caused the misery of the world…
