10.28.07
new chapter
This is an excerpt from "The Tiara" by E.C. Barrett published September 2006.
"It was a nice feeling, you know. Editing my profile and all that. Once and for all, I hate liars, I hate heartbreakers, I hate insensitive people and I just hate that particular chapter of life. But somehow I am thankful it didn’t last for so long. After all, what is left basically is just me, myself and I. Yeah everything was wrong. And I am willing to accept it. Wrong time, wrong love, wrong person, everything. It is just so painful how everything suddenly twisted, but it actually seems that things will eventually end up this way. Don’t tell me what to feel, okay? Because I have learned that I can’t trust anyone else but myself. This will be a beautiful rewind, from the day we met, I will be continuing my story without you in it. Perhaps the time with you is just a commercial, very plausible yet too short and deceitful.
Loving you was never hard to do, and the same goes with hating you. I just learned that it is far easier to find reasons to hate a person than to find reasons to love him or her. But don’t worry, you are not the only one who would swallow words, who knows I might do it also later.
Second chance is unknown phrase to me, but who knows it’s you again who would introduce that to me. Hey, I always gave you that "first" credit, but I have also realized that the first is not always the best. The first will always be a failure, because one or two is so ignorant and innocent and stupid and demented.
Oh my God it was a big mistake of mine, thanks for correcting me.
P.S. It feels good to be alone sometimes, especially with cigarette and wine. Thanks for teaching me that."
