05.07.08

Tying the knot, and other related matters

Posted in Womanhood at 6:22 am by erald17

After hearing the news…
H.B. and J.Z. are getting married in 2010, getting married civilly anytime soon.
How about us? We are not yet on… I presume that we are taking our time…
H.B. will get married before she takes up law. That’s her choice, that’s her life. That’s part of her plans. Both of us are KG’s (de facto) but we have our own personal and individual plans. It is good to understand that the two of them are planning their future already. It’s their choice, it’s their life. But throwing the question on me, it is not wrong to plan anyway. And to make plans which are independent from the plan of my future partner. Holding on to the truth that yes, I do not have a fiance yet so because yes, I am far from being engaged yet.
We were supposed to be on earlier, but God did not allow it. It is just amazing that until now, after almost seven months of courtship, we are not yet on. In the meantime, I am willing to push it to the limits. And let it be on ______ _, ____ (__-__-__). That is at certain conditions written in my diary. Yeah, h.n.a.m. Besides, he has a lot to prove, and h.c.w. And t.r.i.w.m., my s. and for me. _____ more months? ______ weeks… Kaya yan.
For now, I will make plans on my own… After college, I want to find a job, and I want to pursue law. I want to become a lawyer first, before I get married. Yes, if that is also God’s plan for me.
It is difficult when one is married already, and he or she has many plans for her family (mother, father and siblings).
Stability. That’s what I want. Earn money and save money, that is what I have to do… I want to build a house for my parents. The kind of house they both wanted, which, to my knowledge, will be located somewhere in Mabini. After that, I want to purchase a portion of land to be mine, in Tagaytay or Baguio.
And my husband? I thought it would be M.L. But I have to accept the fact that I will not be happy with him. G.T. is more responsible. And even though a part of my heart aches when I would choose G.T. over M.L., I know that it is the right choice. I should not be, and in the first place I am not, selfish to think of my own happiness alone. I love my family now, I love my future and I love the family that my future husband and I are going to build.
If it’s G.T., I want to get married in the Amphitheater of his Alma Mater. That has been what I really wanted since the day I saw that place, three years ago. If it’s someone else, I honestly do not have any idea yet. =)

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