10.28.08
Signals
Sunday. October 26 2008. I was lying down with my boyfriend after hearing the mass that morning. Everything was so fine between us and both of us are happy. No doubt about that. Then suddenly my boyfriend started to talk about future plans. I just asked, “Iniisip mo na talaga ‘yon.” Then he answered, “Hindi naman… syempre present pa din.” I knew that his answer came from somewhere else; it came from me. Because he knew that I would rather think more of the present than of the future. But no. Yes my oao I think about the future. Our future. It is just that I am partly reserved because I am afraid that everything we have planned would not happen. I just need an assurance that we would really work on it. I don’t know… Just tell me to, just ask me to. And I would do it with all my heart.
Oh I am so afraid that we would not be able to make it in the next six years. But I have faith that if we would decide to do it then definitely we could. I love you my oao and I pray to God that it is you. If it is not you, then I pray to God to make it you! =)
