03.23.09
Can we start all over again?
Retrieve the magic that has gone,
the feelings that have faded,
the promises that have been broken,
and the dreams that we once started to build…
Can we feel again what we have felt before,
when we first met
and got to know each other…
………This is shit!
I am trying to remember the feelings
I didn’t know I have forgotten.
The spring of memory has been emptied by bitterness and neglect.
The words that came out earlier are not sweet; they are bland and empty.
I thought I still wanted to feel the magic, to feel the love.
But I am healed already,
and there is no more longing left,
no more desire, no more passion…
But who knows, like what he said,
What if , in time, in the later, later time,
I am single,
he is single,
Then, we will, we could, start all over again…
That is the time, the ultimate time,
when I would believe in second chance.
…rather than hold on to the bitterness in my heart.
So young at heart
Sometimes I ask, “When will my heart be wise?” But then I come to realize that being wise is an attribute of the mind, never of the heart. The heart will never be wise because it always chooses the pain. Maybe that is what hearts are made for, to feel hurt, to be at all times restless - as what it does - never stops beating - to keep us alive.
The heart is always volatile, unstable. You may be in love today, but tomorrow you may no longer be. And we can never tell the heart to feel otherwise.
03.22.09
Life after graduation
At least by now I can say that indeed I am graduating after my name has been posted in the list of students who will be marching at the end of the school year. And the very common question now among graduates is: What kind of life awaits me after graduation? So here I am giving my very own version of the answer to the question.
I had always been excited to graduate. The very day is what I had always been waiting for. While typical students would have mixed feelings upon graduating, I am more likely to feel happier than ever. It has always been a thrill to me to go a notch higher. Neither have I considered graduation a goodbye because it is always possible for graduates to meet later on in their lives. Rather, graduation is a celebration of independence. This is the true beginning of the times when we are going to make decisions based on our own liking and thinking - intelligent and wise decisions at that.
In the last days, I faced several choices as to what I would and should be doing after college. Is it a) pursue law; b) work; c) both a and b; or d) none of the above?
Let’s just say that today, I have confidence level of 80% with letter a. And the remaining 20% would be determined by the possibility of letter c.
I “might” go to a university in the capital. More probably to the Greenest Campus located along Recto. I would have to start my life all over again in a different place - to focus on my PRIORITIES in life. Brothers and sisters, let’s all hope and pray for the best!
My All
I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it’s wrong to love you
Then my heart just won’t let me be right
‘Cause I’ve drowned in you
And I won’t pull through
Without you by my side
I’d give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I’d risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
‘Cause I can’t go on
Living in the memory of our song
I’d give my all for your love tonight
Baby can you feel me
Imagining I’m looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you’re so far
Like a distant star
I’m wishing on tonight
Give my all for your love
Tonight
