06.16.09
Posted in Journal at 9:59 am by erald17
Writing. This is one of the things I miss the most. Being here causes me to write less simply because I’ve been busy doing new things in the new place. Although I did not really miss it that much (having changed my mind). Because my mind has been diverted to new things like legal editing, picnicking and shopping.
I am liking it here, although there are times that I run out of things to do, and get bored with the usual things that I do. Ironically, time here flies so fast yet so slow too. Imagine we just arrived at the condotel after a long day of training, and it is already 10 in the evening and we are reviewing for the assessment. This week we have three assessment exams. And on weekends what I usually do is spend money and buy stuff for my loved ones back home.
I am starting to like it here. We barely have less than a month to be here.
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06.07.09
Posted in Published at 4:27 am by erald17
anonymous
I am a military girlfriend. I hold no formal recognition with the powers that be. I am at the bottom of the chain. I hold no Military ID card, I am not a “dependent” or a parent. The man I love may face unspeakable dangers, and I am at the mercy of those who possess this recognition for news. I understand this and accept this.
I am a military girlfriend. I have promised to be here for him upon his return, no matter how long he is away. People may say I am insane for making such a commitment with no guarantees, but I hold onto our promises and have faith that he will come home safe to me. I know full well that my love for him fuels him in the worst of times.
I am a military girlfriend. I hope every day that he will be able to call because a simple 30-second phone call can bring the greatest spectrum of emotions… smiling with tears in my eyes from so much joy and pain. My relationship is based on a brief communication where “I love you and I’m okay” speaks more than volumes and gives me the strength to keep going.
I am a military girlfriend. I take no moment spent together for granted. I hold onto every touch, caress, kiss, every word. I have memorized the feel of his skin, his smell, the sound of his voice, and I play it over and over in my mind so that I will not forget. I cry myself to sleep some nights because missing him hurts so badly, but wake up the next morning, brush myself off, and start a new day.
I am a military girlfriend. The events of the next several months hold my life, my love, and my future in the balance. When you watch the news reports, you may turn away and go about your business relatively unaffected. When I watch news stories of the war, I do not see nameless soldiers a half a world away. I see individuals who will be forever changed by war. News of every casualty causes me physical pain and deep sadness, and tears beyond my control.
I am a military girlfriend, not a spouse or family member. When you say your prayers for the wives, mothers, and fathers, please don’t forget about me.
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06.05.09
Posted in Humor at 12:14 pm by erald17
I am or was sick. I felt that the sunlight had an unusual effect on me when I went out for lunch last Monday. I immediately took paracetamol to prevent the probable attack of fever or colds. The following days I had slight fever, felt unable to do strenous physical activities. I managed to take medications religiously. Last night, or was it this morning, when I experienced a nightmare or a night terror. I was alone in my bed (my roommate did not sleep in our room because I had fever), when I went half awake and couldn’t talk, move and could hardly breathe. Maybe it was really nightmare or night terror, or maybe I was just TOO stressed the day before that it made a terrible effect on my sleep. I could rememer that I was occupied with scary and distressful thoughts before falling asleep.
Probably this isn’t swine flu. It is just that my body is having difficulty adjusting to the new climate, not to mention the diet and lifestyle.
Shew! Go away! (fever and flu)
Please Lord help me, I want to enjoy my stay here!
To God be the glory!
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06.03.09
Posted in Humor at 12:27 pm by erald17
It is just a big turn off when people talk about people. I do not want to be like them; I try not to.
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06.01.09
Posted in Humor at 11:35 am by erald17
I have never given much thought to how I would die.
Erm this is no Bella thingy or a review to Meyer’s Complications chapter. Rather this is a thought on the first few weeks of my stay in this old little town. Life here, as they say, is like being in the Big Brother House. We stay together with other people we do not know and it is nonetheless part of our job to know one another and to deal with each other well.
Since day one, I have already been experiencing things which are both within and beyond my expectations and imaginations. And it gives me a whole lot of mixed feelings.
I get to know different types of people, I get to deal with them. I enjoy it; and it is a whole lot of fun.
Largely I am feeling happy with my life right now. Why not? In the least, everything that I want are within my reach. I dreamt of things, I dreamt of situations, and in a blink of an eye, they happened.
The universe - God - has been good to me. In the least, I am making my parents proud with where I am right now. I am making my siblings happy because I am helping them. I am helping them enjoy the life that they deserve. And I always want to stay that way.
In the least, I am happy for myself because at this age, immediately after graduation, God has provided me with a job good enough and the job I never knew I always wanted, and He gave me the kind of space that I asked for. And He allowed me to experience a different taste of life - that is, finding it in the life of others, in the places I have been, in the things that give myself and other people pleasure. I am not sure if I explained it the way I wanted but I hope that, in a way, made sense.
Now I got what I wanted: happy and supportive family, people who love me and people who hate me because they love me, and enormous amount of blessings from the One above.
Yet I am willing to lose all of these for security and peace of mind. ;p Whatever you call it!
I am willing to - because I know I will - lose all of these, just for that one thing that will set me free! =)
But men I am so so free right now, like hell! I am out of my own country and I am far from my family and my bf, and it’s amazing, I can make it on my own!
=)
Yeah pay me for this! Whatever you think of it!
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